CC Sabathia announced Monday he’ll be checking into alcohol rehab, meaning he won’t be available throughout the playoffs.

After the announcement, Sabathia took to Instagram to explain why he made the decision. He posted a photo that read, “Just trying to get my shit together” along with a long caption that stressed his need to put rehab first.

Be Back Soon….. I love baseball and I love my teammates like brothers, and I am also fully aware that I am leaving at a time when we should all be coming together for one last push toward the World Series. It hurts me deeply to do this now, but I owe it to myself and to my family to get myself right. I want to take control of my disease, I want to be a better man, father and player. Today I am checking myself into alcohol and rehabilitation center to receive the professional care and assistance needed to treat my disease. I want to thank the my coaches and teammates for their encouragement and understanding. Their faith in me gives me great strength and has allowed me to move forward with this decision with a clear mind. As difficult as this decision is to share, I don’t want to run and hide. But for now please respect my family’s need for privacy as we work through this challenge together. Being an adult means being accountable. Being a baseball player means that others look up to you. I want my kids—and others who may have become fans of mine over the years—to know that I am not too big of a man to ask for help. I want to hold my head up high and have a full heart and be the type of person again that I can be proud of. And that’s exactly what I am going to do. I am looking forward to being out on the field with my team next season playing the game that brings me so much happiness. – CC

A photo posted by CC Sabathia (@cc_sabathia52) on Oct 5, 2015 at 3:37pm PDT

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